My wife has been taking 150 mg Zoloft, 150 mg 5-HTP (5-hydroxytryptophan) and some naturopathic medication intended to improve the adrenal glands. She was taking 0.5 mg Respiridone, but she decided not to continue with that, since she would hear a dull static ringing inside her head when she took Respiridone.
With some weekly massage and acupuncture thrown in for good measure, her condition has steadily improved, and she has recently started to fall asleep consistently without the use of zoplicone albeit she is getting only about 4.5 - 5hrs of sleep. Consistently meaning that she has been off zoplicone for 3 days now and counting after steadily reducing the dosage of zoplicone in the prior weeks. She still complains about waking up too early and not getting enough sleep, and that combined with her general mood tells me that she is not out of the woods yet.
She keeps asking me the same questions, such as whether she has a thyroid problem, whether she has throat cancer, whether she will make it, why can't she sleep naturally like other normal human beings, does she have TMJ, whether she has a cortisol imbalance, why isn't she seeing an endocrinologist about her problem, why does she have thsi persistent tension in her neck when she does not have any stressful thoughts, when can she start weaning off her meds, how do I know how much sleep she has been getting, why does she feel like she's not improving, do I even care about her condition, etc.
I initially tried recording a couple answers on my smartphone so that I could just play it back to her whenever she asks those same questions. But then after she wrecked her own Nexus 5, I had to give her my Nexus 5. When I gave her my old phone, I initially tried to add her as a secondary account, so that there would be 2 accounts on the Nexus 5, my account (primary) and her account (secondary). Unfortunately, I found out the hard way that secondary accounts cannot receive any text messages, and the administrator (primary account) has to specifically provide access to the secondary account to make phone calls. And to top it all off, there is no way to make the secondary account an administrator, so the only way was to factory reset the phone. Factory resetting my old Nexus 5 (her new phone) also meant wiping out the pre-recorded answers that I had made. Now I am too lazy to record new pre-recorded answers, partly also because I don't really like how I sound in the audio.
But nonetheless, I feel like a tape recorder just regurgitating the same canned answers over and over again every time she asks the same questions over and over again. It's become almost a challenge of how robotic and monotonous I can sound without sounding like "holy crap, are you frickin' kidding me, you just asked me the same god forsaken question a couple hours ago!!!"
I am the secretary for my wife, and she approves of this post.
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